Working on this one.......
27/07/19
I've started again so many times its become a running joke. Ive cleared out so many negative people from my life that I've run out of people to actually 'clear out'
It's not that I'm grumpy (I am) or moody (I am) but more that I'm not putting up with people that don't give back what I put in. Relationships of any sort really should be a two way thing or you just get exhausted. Obviously there are times in those said relationships when you will be required to put in more purely because of circumstances, thats fine. You should never give and expect to receive, we all need to be selfless. But when you are needing that little extra support, be it you've broken a finger nail and you want that person to understand, or say, your daughter nearly fucking died so you'd like a few more people to show they give a flying fuck (no. I'm not bitter) yes I am!! Thats when you see the two way thing.
Or say...when you've worked your fat fucking arse off and you NEVER get appreciated. When its soul destroying, then it's time to move on.
I've never been scared to change my life, I've done it a few times, I mean just look at the state of me! My motto is, if you're not happy, do something, no one will change your life for you. It may be scary, I may get an ulcer worrying when it all gets pretty shit, but you gotta turn the negatives into positives or what's the bloody point.
I'm currently in the eye of my storm...well, perhaps not right in the centre of it yet but I will be soon. Once again its gonna be shit, but watch me turn this around. If you don't stand up and fight, then there really is no point in living.
Watch this space...ulcers here I come :)
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